Ashlee came to me the other day and told me that she got in a big fight with Sara on the internet. Sara supposedly said “You and your group are all emos. The only reason why you go home is to cut yourself.” Stuff like that. And Ashlee just had to ‘fight back’ and call her slut, bitch, ect ect. Ashlee even called Stephanie and got Stephanie involved. First of all, I just want to say, how immature is that? I know I’m 14 and all, and most girls do do that, but I just wish some of my friends had more wisdom. Here’s what I somewhat told her through a note. “It is really wrong for Sara to even start judging us. She’s obviously insecure about herself. But if you turn around and start judging her… what does that make you? It makes you just like her. Ashlee, you’re giving our whole group a reputation and bringing us down to Sara’s level. I want to be a complete opposite of Sara. Even if you stand up to her just for you, and your hanging out with us, it’ll somewhat give people ideas as to what kind of people we are. If you want to be smart, and actually not let her win, then tell her that judging is wrong, you shouldn’t do it, and just leave it at that. Or just ignore her. Or tell her ‘I’m sorry that you feel so down about yourself that you have to pick fights with people your jealous of because we have more fun than you.’ That’s what I would have said.” I think she got the picture and *hoping, hoping, hoping!* she won’t do it again.
And talk about freaking out! Since Ashlee unleashed her anger, Sara probably thinks that we all really are emo. The way Ashlee’s handling the situation, it’s like she’s trying to disprove that we’re emo so much, that it’s making us look like emos. Do you understand what I’m saying?

Well this one day, I was telling Sally on the bus how I only trust one person in our grade. She like "It's not me?" "No." She wasn't mad or anything, but told her how she swore on the Holy Bible not to tell Ashlee about the whole “Kaisha getting together with Cody lie”. Sally was like "I DIDN'T TELL HER, IT WAS KAISHA!" I still didn't believe her, so I called Ashlee too see what she said. Yeah, Kaisha did tell her, and I thought the whole time that Sally was the one that told her. Now, Ashlee saying "Yeah, the only one I can trust now is Stephanie." and Kaisha was saying how she can't trust anyone, and same with Sally (only Sally trusts Joe and Mackenzie). *sigh* Now it's a big thing that everyone's talking about. The only reason why I don't trust any of them is because Kaisha tells me "You can't trust Ashlee or Sally." then Sally says "You can't trust Kaisha or Ashlee." and Ashlee says "You can't trust Kaisha or Sally." I don't know who to believe or how to solve it, so I'm better off not trusting anyone. Maybe tomorrow I can make a plan to ‘lay it all out on the table’ and start a new trustworthiness in my little friend group. Depends on what mood I’m in.

Kaisha was talking to me another day in band about how on the one note Cody and her were writing, she asked “So why did I waste my time even flirting with you…” or something of the order. I told her “I’ll e-mail him and ask him.” But after lunch, I changed my mind because I really wanted Cody’s and Our’s e-mail private and only to each other. So I told her that and I told her how I only trust Cody. She got all mad and was like “I don’t think you should consider him a friend.” I just looked at her with a ‘Did you just say what I think you said?’ look. After she saw my face, she’s like “I don’t know, whatever you think.” Dude, that just totally offended me in many ways. So called ‘flirting’ with Cody…does it have to lead to a boyfriend girlfriend relationship? Why does it have to be more? Why can’t friendship be good? And, dude, Cody and I are acquainted quite well, and she knows it. Why the hell wouldn’t I consider him a friend? Why the hell would you say something like that when I’m smart enough to figure out who to trust and who to not trust? Sure, there’s some things I haven’t told Cody, but I have told Jared or my other friends. Maybe it’s because I only talk about those types of secrets when somebody asks me about them, or has a problem with me that leads to one of those secrets.

It just made me mad. I’m thinking it’s just because Cody honestly told her that she’s only a friend in his eyes, and she wanted to be above me with an association of Cody. And look! There’s another reason why I can trust Cody. He’s honest.